In June of this year I embarked on a journey to find something new. I knew I had to close Nuada, the small retail business I loved. The time had come, and I knew this would be tough.
When I started on this journey, I had no idea what was next. I knew I needed to work, earn money, and pay the bills, and I wanted to do it as quickly as possible. I was also finding it very hard to let Nuada go, but I didn’t know why.
A few months earlier, a friend recommended that I go to CTC, the Career Transitions Center of Chicago. I thought it would be a good starting point, and I really wanted to take action. I desperately wanted to move on. At the first orientation meeting, Laura, the CTC Director of Programming, after listening to my particular story said to me, “You know, someone once told me that nothing is a waste, that everything leading up to this point was meant to happen.” She also said to me, “You’re tired,” and I almost burst into tears. Up to that point I was trying to pretend Nuada was over and that I was fine. I wasn’t. Holding onto Nuada and the sense of failure that came with closing it had so drained me that while I desperately wanted to move on, I didn’t know how--and I was tired.
For me, and I suspect for many others, opening my business was a manifestation of who I was and who I wanted to be. I could be creative, which I never could in my previous jobs. I could be interactive, meeting new people, introducing artists to customers, getting involved in community groups. I could be strategic, making plans, searching for new products, holding events. I loved it. But now it was gone.
When we have a setback, lose a job, or “fail” in a business, the inclination is to reprimand ourselves, ask what we did wrong. What we don’t do, or at least what I didn’t, is ask what I did right. All I saw was something I needed to fix, a “failed” business and a lack of income and I needed to fix it fast.
I now know that there was nothing to fix. Nuada wasn’t the goal; it was part of the journey. It was an invaluable experience, one that has opened up all kinds of new and exciting opportunities, but closing Nuada was also part of the experience, and the part that has allowed me to move on. Through taking the time to learn more about me, my strengths, and what I love to do, I have opened up my life to a whole new set of possibilities, but I could not have discovered those possibilities if I had not closed Nuada.
But it wasn’t easy. I couldn’t move on from Nuada until I first acknowledged how much it had meant and how I really felt about losing it. Be gentle with yourself. When you lose something in your life, big or small, allow some time to grieve. But remember that it’s all part of the journey, the good and the bad. Each point on the journey serves a purpose. Nothing is a waste.
Orla,
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear about the closing of the store. I have been wearing the wool sweater jackets and using the beautiful Christmas decorations that I bought from you several years ago on amritage ave. admiring how they have held up. I was thinking it is time to purchase one more sweater.
The most important thing I gained by coming into your store was a sense of warmth and promise. I really liked the energy and always felt welcomed to look even though I wasn't buying on that day. I continued to shop at Christmas when you moved downtown but was not able to come to your southport store.
I am wishing you the best and look forward to reading your news letter. Let me know if you ever want to meet for tea. I would consider it to be a great gift and a show of graditude for the lovely things I was able to enjoy because your store welcomed me in. This is Phyllis from DePaul.
Orla,
ReplyDeleteGood luck on the next stage of your journey. I agree that every thing happens for a reason and takes us to our next step in our life. Obviously you have a gift of sharing which you generously shared through Nuada. Your first blog post brought tears to my eyes. It's another gift that hopefully many will be able to appreciate.
I love your blog and I'm so happy to see you're going to be in Nancy's Art de Triumph expanded gallery. Just added the 11/20 grand opening party to my iCal.
ReplyDeleteI think you've pegged it right in saying the retail shops were part of the journey. You're an inspiration to others who are facing similar situations and don't know how to move forward (plus you've got broadcast experience now!). You go, Girl!
Thank you to all who responded to my posts. I really appreciate it and Phyllis I would love to meet you for tea. Please email me at orla@nuada.com and we can arrange it.
ReplyDeleteNothing is a waste..every expereince enriches you and everyone you touch. I was proud of you when you opened Nuada, but I think I am even more proud of you in this moment. It takes strength to recreate yourself, but ultimately that is what we all do. Sometimes we do it when we have children,or when they go off to college, when we start business, when we marry, when we divorece-life is constant creation.
ReplyDeleteKnow this -you created a life that you loved and you can do that again-bigger and better.
Love,
Desiree